A Beginning to My Story

A Mother’s Heart

Heart of My Heart

Little girl mine

My face pressed up against glass

Yearning to hold her

Touch denied

My Mother’s Heart shattered

 

History repeats

Shatter

Shattered

Shattering

 

Now I am nine

Beaten up on the way home

Crying

Cowering

Scared

My Mother’s Mother’s Heart Shattered

 

At twenty

I leave home

It’s my life

Leave me alone

Off to Africa

Adventures unknown

Again

My Mother’s Mother’s Heart Shattered

 

Son #1

Molested

Angry

Striking out in Rage

I hold him tight

Taking in all he puts out

My Mother’s Heart Shattered

 

History repeats

Shatter

Shattered

Shattering

 

Son #2

His full lusty cry

Disturbs tiny babes in neonatal

Merconium ingested

Now he must heal

My Mother’s Heart Shattered

 

Each new event

With child at the center

Abused

Hurt

Held back

Injured

A Mother’s Heart Shattered

 

Broken into pieces

Busted apart

Violently

Softly

Quietly

Loudly

Too many pieces to know where to start

 

Reknit

Mended

Made whole once more

Love the adhesive

Guaranteed to restore

 

At sixteen

My daughter despairs

Life is too heavy

No hope ahead

Ten?

Twenty?

Thirty?

Could it be more?

Tiny white pills

Call poison control

 

History repeats

Shatter

Shattered

Shattering

 

We pack her a bag

Hold back the tears

Take her to a place to deal with her fears

She speaks out with acid

Turns down our great love

The lock clicks behind us

As we leave her to heal

 

What a wonderful thing

A Mother’s Heart is

Shatter

Shattered

Shattering

 

Restored by our love.

 

 

2/14/2007

 

 

 

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